We are expecting a baby!

There are moments when all of this feels surreal, and then I get a glimpse of my growing belly or a sudden urge to run to the loo and it takes me back to my initial feeling: that I feel really blessed that God has chosen me to be a mommy to my growing baby and that he has chosen Wesley and I as parents; we are honoured and blessed with this gift of life and we pray for God’s will and protection throughout my pregnancy. 
We planned and prepared for this pregnancy. Wesley and I start every year with our goals and plans for the new year. We’d decided that we’d want to start trying to have a family this year. In January I got serious about my diet and I began eating better, cutting out processed sugar as much as I could and I continued eating as cleanly as I could. I also maintained my exercise programme, committing to running no less than three times a week and doing at least one strength training session per week. I wanted to be as healthy as I could be and have felt the benefits so far in my pregnancy. 
Finding out that we were expecting.We found out that we were going to have a baby on 7th May 2019. It was the night before our family from the UK were returning home and we were so blessed to share the news with them on the morning that they left. But finding out wasn’t free of drama: I’d taken a test four days into missing my cycle and the test was negative. A few days later I was advised to take another test because of treatment that I was on and I was expecting a negative result, so much that I poured a glass of wine to have while I waited for the supposed disappointment. And then the second line appeared. I poured the glass out and rushed to the store to get another test which showed the same positive result. We were surprised because we hadn’t expected it so soon in our journey. We were also cautious to get too excited because Wes and I both understand how delicate pregnancy is, particularly the first trimester. 
How have I been feeling?I really feel that I’ve had a relatively easy ride. My symptoms include occasional heartburn, night time cramping and discomfort, crazy dreams and fatigue. I am so fortunate to have had no morning sickness. Towards the end of the first trimester I’ve had no nausea, a preference for fruit over luxuries and an aversion to cooked vegetables; I continue to enjoy salads as well and am happy that baby wants to be as healthy as I do! I still exercise at least three times a week but abdominal pressure has slowed down my running significantly. I still try to get my heart rate up by walking regularly. (Please note that my gynae is happy to have me exercise because I was active before I became pregnant). 
Scans and the toughest weeks.We went for our first scan at what we thought was 8 weeks but it turned out that we were only 6 weeks along. I’d explained to Wesley that we were likely to hear a heartbeat at that scan. He was ‘textbook prepared’ for what was going to happen but hearing the heartbeat really threw him, so much that he had to leave the room to gather himself after he’d broken out into a cold sweat (yes, it’s sweet and soppy and hilarious at the same time!) He’s been really supportive and as understanding as he can be. 
Week 8 was the toughest in terms of nausea but I went for my second scan (a follow-up to the first) and baby tripled in size, 1.87 cm and the heartbeat was strong and consistent. I was so relieved when I was told that everything looks fine and that the odd shape in the gestational sac that she’s noticed is caused by surrounding fybroids- which don’t seem to pose any problems. Week 8 was also the week that Wesley acknowledged that my body was changing; it was also the week that I became really moody and had daily headaches. Fortunately they didn’t last and only seem to show up when I do too much that day. 
Week 9 started with a very special meeting! I got to meet my best friend’s baby! After fifteen years of friendship it was so surreal to hold, bath, change and feed her baby! It made me so excited that my baby has a friend and her and I are so relieved that we will have people to invite to a braai! I’m very anxious about how much our lives are going to change, socially. I don’t necessarily want to be out on the town but I know that before I was pregnant I really didn’t understand how parents thought. And my baby isn’t here yet, so I know that it will evolve as this journey continues. I’m reminded, daily, that I have to speak life over my child and that I cannot let the fear rule my day or this experience; rather, I need to continue to say thank you for each day and take it one day at a time because that’s all one can do, really. 
My emotional well-being. I kept to myself at the beginning of the pregnancy because I became cranky quite easily; Nausea and headaches can do that to you. But I think my solitude was more for me to adjust, mentally and emotionally, to my new reality. It’s a strange feeling to be filled with joy while guarding your heart. Wesley has given me the best suggestion for how we deal with some of the anxieties that come with be pregnant. He said that we need to accept that everything is fine until we are told something different. It has really helped me to be positive and it has allowed me to enjoy our journey. 
Keeping the pregnancy quiet in the first three months gave me the space to deal with my own thoughts and it also gave Wesley and I time to bond and listen to only each other’s ideas about who we want to be as parents. I have learnt to trust my intuition and I turn to him for support and that has strengthened our marriage, which I believe is so important for our journey into parenthood. But keeping the pregnancy quiet also allowed it to just be mine/ours for a while. I am really happy to share our joy but I also really believe in being present and enjoying the intimacy of something as special as a life, privately, even if it’s only for a little while. There is far more to life than a screen and posts and I’m always happy that I’ve struck a balance and am able to protect the beauty of my reality. 
There is no way that a single post can capture the last three months but I hope that this post has given a little glimpse into what some of it was like. I will do my best to share parts of this journey with you while trying not to neglect other areas of my blog. Please forgive me if I choose being present over content and thank you for all of your messages of well wishes and prayers for us on this journey. 
Bronny xx 

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13 Comments

  1. Jamie ab
    July 23, 2019 / 10:32 am

    I love this! Congratulations ❤️💙💜

    • bronwyn
      Author
      August 12, 2019 / 3:58 pm

      I’m so glad you enjoyed the read. Thank you for your well wishes.

  2. Victoria
    July 23, 2019 / 12:00 pm

    I am so happy for you and Wesley! Congratulations on this blessing xx. You are glowing❤️

    • bronwyn
      Author
      August 12, 2019 / 3:57 pm

      Thank you! We appreciate it so much

  3. July 23, 2019 / 1:51 pm

    I read this entire post with a smile on my face – all aimed at you, Wesley and Baby. Again, so happy for the three of you xx

    • bronwyn
      Author
      August 12, 2019 / 3:57 pm

      This is so special. I really appreciate your well wishes!

  4. Celeste Onkruid
    July 23, 2019 / 2:17 pm

    Congratulations and all the blessings! Xxx

    • bronwyn
      Author
      August 12, 2019 / 3:56 pm

      I really appreciate this, thank you.

  5. July 23, 2019 / 3:11 pm

    Loved this insight into your journey so far hun. All the best with the Baba 💞

    • bronwyn
      Author
      August 12, 2019 / 3:56 pm

      Thank you so much, dear!

  6. Olivia
    July 23, 2019 / 5:02 pm

  7. Landi Felix
    July 23, 2019 / 7:07 pm

    Congratulations on your pregnancy!
    I have also recently found out that Im pregnant. About 3 months now. My fiance and I have been trying to keep our pregnancy private these last months as well. Just until the delicate first trimester is over. I still have to pinch myself sometimes to believe its true. There was a time when I thought I would never get pregnant. My experience has been tough but also amazing so far. Lucky not to have expereinced much nausea, but the fatigue is really tough for me. Im tired all day every day. I used to be really active before I was pregnant, but now Im so tired that I dont have energy to workout anymore. How do you still manage to stay active?

    • bronwyn
      Author
      August 12, 2019 / 3:55 pm

      Thank you. All the best on your wonderful journey to motherhood!

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