I have had a really busy start to the new year. I knew that this was going to be the case after a really short break from work and a demanding first term. If you read my ‘Hello 2019’ blog post you will know that I made a conscious effort to start this year quietly. I’d hoped that the quiet I’d experienced for the short three weeks would spill over into January but the reality of being at school, surrounded by more than a thousand people daily, throws that wish out of the window! I am not complaining; I love my job and I am cherish the time with my bubbly teens. I think it goes without saying, though, that one can easily revert to old coping habits and reach the point of exhaustion quickly when trying to do it all.
From show auditions and weekly extra-mural and lesson preparations to writing blogs and editing videos, I felt myself burning out. I love doing things well and hate that time constraints means that I sometimes make compromises. I bet that if I had an extra day off a week that I would be a super human! But I am allotted my two days and have to make the most of them.
When I mentioned to Wesley that I wanted a quick get-away I could see that he was not as keen as I was. He reasoned that we had just come back from our mini-holiday to Port Elizabeth and that we were just getting into a working routine again. I argued that January had gone by in a flash and that there was no better time to press reboot our year. We have many aspirations for 2019 and I want to be calm throughout some of the challenges we are going to face. I could not resist the little voice saying, ‘I don’t care if it is still January, you need a break, Bronwyn!’. So because Wesley had not actively resisted my idea, I booked a night-over in the CBD in Cape Town. I had always wanted to live in the city and decided that I would live out my dream, even if it was just for a night. I found a beautiful apartment located in Adderley Street and booked us in. Reader, it was the best decision I could have made!
The Cartwright apartment was so welcoming. It had the perfect balance between a holiday house and a home and, because I had spent all that money, I decided that we would not leave and only did so to get some take-out pizza in Kloof Street. I loved the buzz of the streets when our windows were open and the absolute silence when they were closed. Wes and I spent about two hours reading on the Saturday evening before retreating to our ritual champagne conversation when we are away. We chatted for nearly three hours before deciding to watch an episode of ‘Designated Survivor’, the series we are currently watching; we were asleep within ten minutes of the first episode, the mark of a good conversation! I returned home the following day feeling really relaxed and aware that I’d nearly lost sight of my very important assertion that I would make more time for myself and my marriage in 2019. I am so grateful that we could create a little bubble for ourselves to unwind and reconnect as a couple; I believe that our health and ability to enjoy one another is a big part in our individual experiences of joy. We share life, after all.
Why am I telling you all this?
Well, I want to remind you that it is never too late to start a good habit. We all have amazing intentions for our lives but we often make poor excuses about starting them. I also wanted to say that there are always going to be things that are out of our control; my job is incredibly demanding and I become really low at times at the fact that a lot of my personal time is spent preparing for the next day – but that is the mark of passion and dedication. I do, however, have control over the rest of the hours in my day; I have to prioritise the necessary and procrastinate a lot less if I am going to live well. Lastly, I want to remind all of us that experiences far outweigh things. I am happy to have learnt this lesson again so that I can consider spending enough quality time with family and friends.
With that being said, I am so ready to tackle February! I spent some time planning the week’s lessons and will, hopefully, have more quiet evening time this week.
When last have you said that it’s time to call a time-out? And what are the intentions you are yet to begin?
Until my next post,